Watching the Script Unfold

What makes us happy ?

There are infinite amount of reasons to be happy or not. Therefore instead of wasting time with endless search of what

makes us happy , it is better to focus on finding general way of embracing sadness to be happy. The way I found is

philosophical and originated from my physics background. At physics, it is likely to see questions which start with

“when”. One day I noticed that we were actually calculating the future while solving them but to what extent? We could

predetermine ‘when’ will our cars run out of fuel, stone meets to ground or water boils because they are events takes

minutes and have many negligable variables. But even the fraction of sunlight comes to earth has a role on the question

of where ı will be in ten years? And humans are not qualified to compute that extent. Nevertheless universe has strict

rules that every atom obeys without exception. Thus even seems imposible to simulate all molecules, the idea of

forecesting future with %100 accuracy holds and we can call it as destiny defined nothing but science. This philosophy

lead me to sadness first. Because nothing I did or will do was spontaneous. Living become meaningless. It was obvious

that ı was wrong at least I must be wrong. I keep continue telling that to myself. Then I have found my spark. I watched a

film and enjoyed from it. There were cheerless scenes as much as blissfull(?) ones. At the end , intertitle part to be

correct, I realized the movie was written beforehand yet it didn’t stop me to watch it or lead me to sadness. The concept

was totaly same for both film and my life at different scales. At life scale premiere , we are the only audience of our own

film. Every second of this 70 years lasting movie, our main goal should be feeling goosebump on every inch of our body.

To achieve this we must consider struggles as parts that add drama to our film with the knowledge of there is nothing to

do even if they sometimes cause us to cry , feel depressed or sad. Meanwhile we shouldn’t miss details makes us happy

such as the person we fall in love, the last animal we cared or the last song we heard. Embracement of being audiance of

our own film and acceptance that there is no way to interfere with the script makes us feel relaxed which results in

happiness. And we should always remember “we watch as much as we play”.

“Erdem Canaz-02.10.2019”